you keep hanging around me & I'm not so glad you found me

I had a nightmare last night for the first time in a long time.

I know I've posted before about having "nightmares," but this was different.

It was not just a bad dream that I remember in far too much detail; it was a legitimate, wake up kind of scared/sad/confused, covered in sweat & wanting to vomit, can't really remember anything but a drug-related them & the image of my mother crying, 100% legitimate nightmare.

I'm in a kind of daze now, and my head hurts.

I wasn't planning on getting up until around now (6:30 - 6:45), but I got up at 5:30 anyway.. I really saw no point in going back to sleep.

I'm scared... of a lot of things.. some of which I'm aware of, most of which I can't really explain.

I'm tired. So tired. Not sleepy, just.... exhausted.

My roommate's finally starting to get on my nerves a little. She hasn't done a damn thing wrong or even differently than she ever has before, but I have the urge to punch her & it makes me feel really guilty.

and if I haven't made this clear before, I miss my sister.

I'm so tired.

Sleep. Don’t weep,
my sweet love.
Your face, it's all wet.
And your day was rough.
So do what you must do
to find yourself.
Wear another shoe.
Paint my shelf.
There's times that I was broke
when you stood strong.
I think I’ve found a place
Where I …

Sleep. Don’t weep,
my sweet love.
Your face, it's all wet
'cause our days were rough.
So do what you must do
to fill that hole.
Wear another shoe
to comfort the soul.
There's times that I was broke
when you stood strong.
I think I’ve found a place
where I feel I will…

Sleep. Don’t weep,
my sweet love.
My face, it's all wet
'cause my day was rough.
So do what you must do
to find yourself.
Wear another shoe.
Paint my shelf.
There's times that I was broke
when you stood strong.
I hope I find a place
where I feel I… belong

Sleep. Don’t weep,
My sweet love.
My face it's all wet
'cause my day was rough.

Don't weep, my sweet love.
My face, it's all wet
'cause my days are rough...